finally finding focus
Life has been a little hectic lately. I've been spending most of my time finding someone to take over my apartment, packing, and getting ready for my move back to the Boston area. I'm excited to start my new job, and even more excited to be around my family again. I think I shared a little bit about my ambivalence in taking this job, but I'm generally glad that I did end up accepting it. It may not be what I want to do for the rest of my life, but it doesn't have to be. The deeper I get into the museum world, as an employee, the more I see problems of a nature that I generally don't agree with at all. On the one hand, I love museums for being an educational resource, where anyone can go to actually experience a repository of cultural artifacts first hand. On the other hand, all of these artifacts are owned and donated by the wealthiest people in the world, and I can't help but think that museums actually exist as essentially storage units for the millionaires of the world. I also am quickly realizing that if I want to have even the smallest chance of advancing into a role that is more participatory, I'll most likely need a master's degree, and that doesn't even guarantee anything, as its still immensely competitive.
I think what I love about this job, and why I accepted it, and want to succeed at it for as long as I need to, is because I really just want to experience having a regular, full time job and routine schedule for a good period of time. I've spent most of my life so far working part time in cafes, and part time as a photographer, and I've never really committed to either of them. I feel as though I always had one foot in each world.
But do I want to do for more than a year? I don't think so. More and more, I realize that photography is what I truly love. Everything else that I do has been to support and ignite my passion for photography, and telling stories through lens based media. Yet in the past, I found it hard to find a clear focus. I just kind of pointed my camera at anything.