briefly checking in with myself
I shaved today, and for the first time in a long time, I can see my whole face. I kind of feel more like my old self, or maybe all of my old selves up to this point. Its funny how shaving can do that, make you feel like yourself again. I think part of it is that I enjoy taking care of myself, and letting my facial hair grow can sometimes feel like just not caring, letting things go wild, which is also nice to do sometimes. I took a self portrait after I shaved. I haven't turned the camera on myself in a while, and it's nice to see myself gazing back.
I decided to play around with dithering, just because I like the way it looks. I made this one with dither it!. I haven't made a lot of new art in a while, and figured I'd just play around with some digital tools I've heard of, but never ventured into. I like the patterns you can generate with the dithering tools, and I also love that the files are so compressed and tiny. I'll be sure to share more as I make them (and they're fun to make).
For dinner, I made a really good faux bolognese, or "fauxlognese", as I refer to it in my head. I replaced the ground beef I'd usually use with mushrooms, and cooked it for about 3 hours. It came out very nicely. I'm not vegetarian, but I try to balance my diet as best I can. When I eat a lot of meat, for a few days, I'll start cooking exclusively vegetarian. Sometimes I have specific things I'll make with meat or fish on certain days, but more often than not, I just eat what feels right at the time. I'm not very good at sticking with things, or labeling myself as this or that. I'm okay with that though.
Today was a pretty slow, rainy day. I let myself sleep in until noon, and just hang around the house watching bad tv and catching up on laundry and some cleaning. It felt really good, and now I feel ready for the next week of work.
Well, that's it for today.